One door closes, another opens

Once again, I find myself beyond words as I sit down to fill you all in about our life and what has happened as of late. Two weeks ago when I posted about our decision to stop the adoption process, I would have NEVER guessed we'd be in the position we are in now. So much has changed since that post in such a short amount of time.

One week ago we were faced with a call from Child Welfare Services about two siblings who were now in care and in need of a permanent home. This is after we told them we were done and not looking to adopt anymore. Due to legal obligations I cannot disclose why they were now in foster care but I can say that I was told these two children (6 year old boy, 2 year old girl) were rare entities that come through the foster care system. They are legally free (ready to be adopted) They don't have any major issues and have the chance to become well adjusted "normal" kids. They are just emotionally hurting really bad and need a family who can help them grieve the loss of the only home they've ever known. To make an extremely long story short God so strongly placed on my heart that these children needed to come be with us that a thorough thought process was underway as to what should we do? After 24 hrs of finding out more about them Brian and I made the decision to take them in for the weekend to at least get them out of another foster home they were temporary placed in and go from there.

One week ago we welcomed Big Bro and Lil Sis into our home and life has certainly been incredibly different! I ended taking all three children - Big Sis, and the two foster kids to a large Fair in our State for two days so that Big Sis could show her sheep with Nana and Papa. Call me crazy, call me a gluten for punishment or just call me blessed! I was a wild 48 hrs with all 3 kids BY MYSELF - talk about a constant adrenaline rush, but it was also so much fun and a time in which I'm sure none of us will ever forget. After I arrived back home on Saturday evening, Brian and I were faced with the decision of what to do. Child Welfare was looking to us to commit to adopting them but we were so unsure of if we could say yes to such a permanent decision without getting a chance to fully adjust to the idea yet. We weighed it all out, what would this mean to our current life? It in no doubt would change every single thing about it. We talked a lot and I prayed that God would align our hearts. We decided that for now, we were only capable of helping them get stabilized until they could find an adoptive home. This would mean that they would be staying with us for quite some time - how long we don't really know - and that we were agreeing to help them heal and stabilize them emotionally and assist in transitioning them.